Son With Asperger Disorder

Today was a little harder than usual. Jonathan my son who is 21 has asperger disorder a form of autism. They never grow out of it and life h=for these kids are so much different than ours. He has had a headache since last night and that just seems to set his mood. Sometimes it seems to me they have so much anger and really dont know how to channel it. He hs been ill nature since he woke up. Everyone seems to just set him off. You always wonder wht you done wrong when you were pregnet why did this happen? So many questions and no answers. It is very frustrating at times. And other times you feel so guilty. Jonathan was born a very healthy baby. He was a good baby, he slept through the night when he was just 2 wks old. But he never talked till he was 4. He would point at things he wanted. He would say mama and dada but that was it. At a young age he never comprehended the difference between yes and no. And really never grsp what he done wrong we confronted with misbehaving. He would spend hours playing with cotton balls and aluminum foil. I just thought he found these items amusing. He never liked to play with other children and always kept to himself. All the signs were there I just didnt have the infromation I needed. When he was first born and we took him to the doctor I had him all bundled up because it was cold. And I remember the words the doctor told me--You are going to kill that baby bundling him up so much. I walked right out of that doctors office and never returned. Jonathan was a loving little baby but only to me--and till this day that is the way he is. He doesnt like for me to go in his room and clean--because then he cant find anything and its not where he left it. His belongings are just that his dont touch. He washes his hands everytime he touches something or someone shakes his hand. There is so much I could write about my sweet Jonathan but that will be for later. Right now I am just trying to deal with his mood that is about to get the best of both of us. Anyone out there been there still there lets talk lets compare notes anything right now would be nice just dont tell me to give him meds. Thats where my issues really lie. I will explain later!! Thank you for letting me vent!!!