Jonathan

Today is sort of a good day for Jonathan. I let him get a cat from my moms. He keeps her in his room. Jonathan needs to love something though not human beings. They want to talk and interfere with the things he likes to do. When it comes to people he could just do without them. Being social isn't his thing. That comes from the autism though. he cleaned up his room something he does ever once in a while. The main rule of Jonathan's room "Stay Out and Don't Touch Anything if He lets You Come In. And that is a big IF. Some days are better than others. Then they are days like yesterday that I just want to sit down and cry. When it comes to love Jonathan only expresses love to me. He has been like though all his life. He told me yesterday "Mom I hope nothing happens to you because if it does I will go crazy because I will be totally alone". What do you say to do? How do explain death to a child that has no empathy toward others? Its not by his choice its just a part of the autism. Do I worry? Yes everyday. To know Jonathan is to love him..

Connie's Pictures - MySpace Photos

Connie's Pictures - MySpace Photos

Working From Home

I lost my job in October. I have searched the Internet recently hoping to find a home based job. There are so many scams out there. I have tried the on line surveys only to have to purchase what I am doing a survey on. So again I tried. I went through all the sites listed under working from home and as of today still haven't found one. Maybe I am not looking in the right places. Every site I have visited has ask for a fee(they say free but don't be fooled). I am really frustrated. I signed up for Paid surveys only to be taken to a site that ask all these questions about me and at the end it said"They are no surveys available at this time". I know there is alot of moms out there that have lost their jobs and just trying to survive. I am one of them. Don't fall for all the hype of working from home it just isn't true. Last week I received a check in the mail for 5000.00 dollars all I had to do was spend a certain amount at different stores and western union them 4500.oo. How they got my address was simple. I had went to all these sites and my information was out there. They know you are desperate. They see the perfect scam. I had enough sense to take the check to my bank and have them check it out. They confirmed it was a fraud. I left the check with the bank manager. I know we are looking for ways to take care of our families. Just be very careful. I am researching these at home jobs. As I get results I will post them and let you know who they are and what is required. Maybe if more work at home moms do this we can stop these frauds!!! If you know any of these companies that are just not being honest--Share them with me and I will also post them in my blogs. Ladies lets work together!!!

In The News

Yet again another Preacher is arrested for sex crimes. Our children are prey to everyone. No child is safe. This is only my opinion and though it my offend some it is just that MY opinion. Each day I read on the web, in our local paper someome somewhere has been charged or convicted of sex crimes against children. It is very frightening to me as a mom. Just trying to keep them safe is a job all by its self. I live in a pretty safe neighborhood or so I hope. But the fear is there. I do not let my little girl walk down the street by herself even with her cell phone with her. If she is outside I keep a close eye on her. Some people consider me controlling. I consider myself as a good parent who knows there is dangers out there. I am not trying to controll her just keep her safe. My husband thinks I am paranoid maybe to a point I am. Someone has to protect our children from these people. Even though we sometimes trust people we should alwys tke a close look at who our children are spending time with. There are signs we just have to communicate with our children. There are alot of good sites out there that can teach us how to keep our children safe. We just have to do something. Please dont be one of those parents who say"This will never happen to my child". Every child is at risk. Know your child!!!

Son With Asperger Disorder

Today was a little harder than usual. Jonathan my son who is 21 has asperger disorder a form of autism. They never grow out of it and life h=for these kids are so much different than ours. He has had a headache since last night and that just seems to set his mood. Sometimes it seems to me they have so much anger and really dont know how to channel it. He hs been ill nature since he woke up. Everyone seems to just set him off. You always wonder wht you done wrong when you were pregnet why did this happen? So many questions and no answers. It is very frustrating at times. And other times you feel so guilty. Jonathan was born a very healthy baby. He was a good baby, he slept through the night when he was just 2 wks old. But he never talked till he was 4. He would point at things he wanted. He would say mama and dada but that was it. At a young age he never comprehended the difference between yes and no. And really never grsp what he done wrong we confronted with misbehaving. He would spend hours playing with cotton balls and aluminum foil. I just thought he found these items amusing. He never liked to play with other children and always kept to himself. All the signs were there I just didnt have the infromation I needed. When he was first born and we took him to the doctor I had him all bundled up because it was cold. And I remember the words the doctor told me--You are going to kill that baby bundling him up so much. I walked right out of that doctors office and never returned. Jonathan was a loving little baby but only to me--and till this day that is the way he is. He doesnt like for me to go in his room and clean--because then he cant find anything and its not where he left it. His belongings are just that his dont touch. He washes his hands everytime he touches something or someone shakes his hand. There is so much I could write about my sweet Jonathan but that will be for later. Right now I am just trying to deal with his mood that is about to get the best of both of us. Anyone out there been there still there lets talk lets compare notes anything right now would be nice just dont tell me to give him meds. Thats where my issues really lie. I will explain later!! Thank you for letting me vent!!!

Being a Mom

Hi everyone!!

This is my first blog. So I will be putting alot on this site. I am 45 and I have 4 children. Their ages are 27, 22, 21, and oh my god 10. Two boys and two girls. I have been married for 12 years and why I dont know but I marries the same man twice-Go figure. I lost my job back in October and I am about to go crazy. I really dont like to stay at home. This is my way of letting off steam and not to feel so lonely. I know their is alot of Moms like me that just need an outlet. o joined me and lets talk!!!